when the clock strikes 12

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Nothing seems to fit
I'm a stranger in this world
Fish out of water.


๑۩۞۩๑๑۩ﺴ ﺴ۩๑๑۩۞۩๑




When the clock strikes 12 tonight, I'll be 18.
And I'll have to bid my 17-year-old-self farewell... ...





P/s: Hoping I can finish my homework and revision...
o(╥﹏╥)o

Can't wait for Friday~

I can't wait for Friday~
Can't wait for Friday~
Can't wait for Friday!!

Why? you ask.




That's cause its ma' birthday!




But really I don't have any plans...
I mean I'm certainly not gonna have a party.
Nor am I going out with my friends for yam-cha-ing...
So I guess I'll be staying at home ;(
Plus I think there won't be a birthday cake for me...
*sigh*
And there won't be presents, I think.
Cause I've already got an early present from my friends...
Somewhere in July if I'm not mistaken...
Read th1s

But I'm still happy cause its my birthday^^

:)

I would like to have a cake...

A small one...
Strawberry flavoured.
A cute cupcake would do, with lotsa candles on top^^

I would like a new violin...
A not too expensive one...
With a more subtle sound...
And I would like some new music sheets to go with it^^
Preferably anime songs...Yiruma...

And BOOKS!!

I would love books^^
It'll make my day if I get books for my birthday present~
I've already written a list...
hehe

I would like to get good results for this up coming exam...
(Which I won't get if I don't start revising!)
I would like to go to England...
I would like to have sooooooo many things^^

Yes, I'm greedy.
I know that ;P
But a girl can dream can't she?

School Days are Damn Boring...

I hope you guys do agree with me that schools day are really boring...
Its like we're mechanically doing the same thing over and over again...
= =
Tired~


Actually, I didn't want to update my blog...
Cause I didn't have something really interesting or special to write...
But I didn't want to just leave my blog with a poem as the newest post...
So....


Well here goes...
These few days pembentangan R&D has been going on...
Almost everyday except for Wednesdays and Fridays...
Well...
Basically, all the Lower 6th students get stuck together in the computer lab listening to other students going on and on non-stop about their R&D
R&D = Rehat & Duduk...
Kaka...
Well its kinda true since everyone is sitting and we're spacing out and making noise...

So yesterday we had this R&D thing going on...
And suddenly...
everyone started to laugh...
And I was like, huh? What happened?
Was it something the others said?

Then I was told by my friends that this guy farted suddenly and it was loud~

Breddddddd~
(Its that how you type a farting sound?)

Oh my gawd!!!!!
Imagine how embarrassing it is if somebody hears you fart!
Almost half the class 80++ people heard it including the teachers...
= ='''
Ewwwww...
Even the teachers were laughing...


Thank God it wasn't me...

----------------------------Ewwwwww?--------------------------



Let's move on to another topic ok?
And forget about the methane gas thing...

These few weeks have been hard for me...
I've got no time to revise and practice my violin...
Cause of that stupid R&D project and homework...
And most of all...
I'm having a terrible headache due to accounts...
We're learning Form 4 & 5 stuff but its still to tough for me
(I don't have any basics...)

What am I supposed to do?
The year end exams are on the 28th of October...
= ='''
Die loh...

Haven't even started revising...

--------------------------Enough ramblings-----------------------

Actually I've got loads more to write about...
But I think this post is already too long for comfort...

20 followers~
I've got 20 followers!!!
I know this may be a bit compared to others but I'm really happy^^
Thanks guys for all your support...
I could never have made it so far without you guys~
Thanks you oh sooooooo much^^

(why does this sound like a soap opera?)

I would like to smile everyday just for you~

Loneliness

The morning breeze caressed my face
Like a mother fondling a child
I opened up my eyes but there was no one there
Like always


Again I woke up from my nightmares and found no one to accompany me
To share my thoughts
my feelings
and my fears
I knew from the second I was brought to this world
I knew I was and would always be alone


I longed to be hugged
And fondled...
By someone
I long for that painful loneliness to go away
That heart breaking grasp of loneliness
How I envy both mother and son playing together under the autumn sky
How I long to share a mug of warm cocoa with my loved one
How I yearn for that warmth of someone


I don't want to be alone
miserable and tearful
All I want is some proof that my existence in this world is needed


Every night I lay down in the hard, stone cold bed of mine
The coldness had only reminded me of how lonely I was
Then I'll cry myself to sleep and drift into a nightmare
At least my tears are proof that I'm still sane


That evening the rain poured
so heavily I thought the roof would fall on me
All I could do was stare at the rain
I sat at the corner with my feet tucked in
I hugged my knees so hard they felt sore


I was afraid
For the first time
I was truly afraid
Not because of the rain
but what I might and would soon become
The silent echoes of the raindrops were driving me insane
My tears were blinding me
Never have I felt so alone



Just then my bedroom door creaked opened
I sensed a familiar scent in the air
I felt the warmth as the person entered
The coldness and stiffness in the air had disappeared


Finally...


I smiled...
I was no longer alone.





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Haizzzz...






Going to KL for tuition again tomorrow...
= =
This time I'm going alone without the company of a friend...



... ... ...

Finished my MUET speaking this morning~

My MUET slip...

Went to school as usual today^^
We were told that our exam would start at 7: 30am...
Unfortunately some IDIOTS forgot to bring along their I.C and the exam slip...
= =
IDIOTS!!!
So, they had to rush back home...

Luckily the exam didn't start that soon...


+ + + + +


The examiners were quite friendly...
The female teacher was called S K Su...
I think...
And that made me laugh (long story)

I was really scared and nervous...
We were all wondering what topic would we be tested on...

And when we walked into the lab,
(The exam was held in the computer lab)
we found out that the topic wasn't as difficult as we expected it to be...

Hehe~

'The good qualities in a Leader'

Some think like that lar...
I was Candidate C
and if I'm not mistaken I think my point was something about being rational and patient...


Here's a tip for you guys...
Before you start your task...
Ask the examiners the meaning of the words that you don't understand...
Go ahead and ask...
If you're lucky the examiners will explain and elaborate a little and even give you some examples which can really help you...

^^

The discussion went really well...
We helped each other to fill in the gaps^^
Really fun...

Even the examiners praised us...
The male teacher said that it was a really good discussion~
\ (>.<) / At least all those practices weren't fruitless after all~ Really happy!!!

I was practically bouncing all over after we walked out of the lab...


And here's my FIRST MUET speaking experience!

+ + + + +


Thank you Jin Kit for giving me a ride home...
I hope I didn't break your motorcycle
= =

And sorry I didn't inform Kor Yan that I wasn't going home with her...


And of course I big hug to my group members that did so well~
...Jin Kit, Chai Yee and Chee How...
>.~

You can't live by your horoscope.
Thoughts and feelings aren't caused by fate.
Life is always more interesting with shooting stars.