Changes in me + false hopes

I know I've changed

Have I changed for the better??

I dunno

Perhaps some have noticed

Perhaps there are those that aren't aware

Everything about me is changing

I've noticed that

I used to like crowded places

I used to like to play the fool

I used to like the noise of life

But now

I've changed

I no longer adore the many expressions of people

I no longer want to be surrounded by people

I want to hide my true self from everyone

My view about the world is different

But I keep these view points to myself

I'm still being cheerful

But that's just a mask on the outside

I may not have changed much on the outside

But deep down I'm feeling cold

I know it in my mind's eye





...I've changed...




p/s: Not everything is true, some are true but some aren't


This post is copied from my other blog
Rhymes of Life
I didn't know what to write so I just copied and pasted it here...



I've been listening to Yiruma's songs again and again...
Especially MAYBE (love it^^)



It's just so beautiful and peaceful...
Every morning I wake up...
I hear this song ringing in my head~
I've been replaying it again and again...
(I bet my brother is really irritated...Keke...)


I'm trying hard to learn it here...
It has 5 damn FLATS!!!
I HATE flats!!!
At least I managed a page^^
Haizzz...




Oh and...today...
I received a phone call from ma buddy > Nate River
Telling me that...
I MIGHT have got in for Matrix...
When she told me the 'good' news I was so shocked...
It was unbelievable...
I heard that it was quite tough to get Matrix...
And I only got 6As...
I was kinda happy at first...




... ... ... ... ...



But...

It turned out to be a false hope...

Cheh~
She typed my IC number wrongly!!!
My Gawd!!!

That's really disapointing!!!


@#*#$&@$@^#*!$%@!!!! [censored][censored]

Geez...
Next time you check for me, make sure you do it properly!!!
I'm not ungrateful or anything but...
I really don't like false hopes being raised!
... ... ...
Though I know even though I got it I won't be keen on going...
I'd rather study Form 6 here with me friends^^



~Owari~


I'm sorry this post is so lame...