Wednesday, September 7, 2011

To me,





I'll wipe away my tears.




I'll see this as a challenge.




I'll overcome this fear.




I'll smile with courage and dignity.




I'll embrace it with warmth and love.




My future :)










会想我吗?





放下笨重的行李,

跑进屋里,

上楼上,

抱着我的大枕头,

再躺在床上一会儿,

一会儿就好,

不想要忘记那温暖。

仔细的看看房里的每一样东西,

想要牢牢的记住。

摸摸自己的书桌,

到了那里,

我会把你给取代的吧?

好像要把整个家都搬去的感觉。




坐上舅舅的车子,

心里的石头沉重到不得了。

可是泪水往心里流,

因为不想让妈伤心难过。

妈会在我不在的时候,

偷偷流泪吗?

窝里的第一只鸟儿飞走了。

老弟会想念我吗?

领走前的那个拥抱,

我不想忘记,

站在铁门那里静静地看着我的爸爸,

我们对上了眼睛,

你会觉得不舍吗?

我会。




车子开走了,

回头看着那黑色的铁门,

黄色的房子,

蓝色的车子。

我一直提醒自己,

这不是生死离别,

觉得自己很傻,

又不是一去不回头,





假期会回来的,傻瓜。

别哭了。








这是预发的。
我没带手提电脑去,
还没买。


一边想象,
一边流泪,
一边描写。


我的想象应该很准吧。











Monday, September 5, 2011

仔细读读。



这篇文章是在FB 找到的。

仔细读读,

品尝着每个文字,


突然觉得这篇是写给我的。。。



总有一些人,他们看上去整天都很开心,没有烦恼,像个小孩,
好多人都会羡慕他们,但其实不是这样的..
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面,
更没有能力一个人独处,因为当夜深人静的时候,
他不知道一个人会发生什么事,坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴..

他们貌似很坚强,因为在别人看来,他们什么事都能微笑著去面对,
但事实上他们长著世界上最脆弱的心灵,
只是长期的偽装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤..

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活著,
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的,希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。
即使别人小小的意见,也会另他们难过好久,
他们真的真的很介意,介意自己不被人喜欢。
因为,他们总是为别人想的很多,对别人总是比对自己好;
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福,喜欢别人比喜欢自己多..

他们总是那样,前一秒还伤心的流著泪,
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候,已经满脸溢著灿烂的笑容。
有人说她们是向日葵,是的,他们在意的人就像是太阳,
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艷的花瓣,而太阳照不到的背面,
那悲伤藏得那么好,不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活,却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活著,
很累很累,却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远,
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和復杂,恐慌、不知所措..
只有面对最信赖的人时,才会卸下盔甲,委屈的流下眼泪..
因为在他们心里,笑就是开心,哭就是难过,接近就是喜欢,远离就是讨厌..
但其实不是,他们明白了,心好伤,眼泪就没忍住..
哭过之后,笑笑得擦干眼泪,说,没关系,我可以做的很好的..

他们好像无所不能,好像总是不会有烦恼,好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决,
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前,笑嘻嘻的逗著笑..
而面对自己的问题,他们却茫然无措,面对自己的悲伤,
他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大..

他们的想法非常简单,说出来的就是心里所想的,
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯,无心的话可能会引起别人的误解..
所以,请别记恨她们,他们从不愿伤害谁,小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久..
他们其实非常单纯,甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑她也会一辈子记得你的好,
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单,他们很容易受蛊惑 ,
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情,因为一旦伤害了,那就将永远弥补不回来!

如果你身边有这种人请你给予他(她),
那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀,
让他(她)知道这个世界没有拋弃他们..









Christmas for chickens.

I dunno why,
the conversation I had with Jeremiah on FB was SUPER FUNNY!!

I couldn't stop laughing!
I was actually feeling quite down
but then when he started i was laughing like hell.
One man's poison is another man's meat.
*shrugs*

Thanks Jere for cheering me up :)




Just when everyone is getting ready for the U,
he gets hit by the chicken pox virus.



Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!











the doctor BANNED me from attendin orientation week


walao!!!!
that's super funny!!!


I entered and she straight away said
"omg... chicken poxxxx....."
==


where did u go??
hospital?


hospital lah.. just to get MC.


lol damn funny!!


waited for 2 damn hours. ==


how did u get it anyway?
the chicken pox i mean


really no idea.. tis' the season i guess


but no one is having...
= =


christmas for chickens..
ooh i've heard news that some kids are having them ..


you've heard


damn the chickens..


but how did u get the germs
hahahahahahaha!!!!!
outrageous!!!


no idea.. it could be God-sent.
lol.. what a joke to be played!


at least u get it now and not in the u


I haven't been sick for the past 2 years


congrats


and here I am, with a BIG one. lol


sudebly ka-BOOM!
yr sick
suddenly*


just now when I asked the doctor
" can I get an MC?" s
he straightaway said,
" you MUST get an MC!"


lol!!


wow...
and when I was asking for a week's leave,
she gave me ten days.
and asked me whether its enough LOL!!!!!


so you'll be missing 2 weeks!!!!


and she said its STILL INFECTIOUS..


SUPER LOL!!!


i was like c'mon!! i wanna enter uni lahh!!!


must be frustrating


aih~ seems like i'll have to stay in bentong for another week or 2..
my MC starts TOMORROW, ends on the 16th.
and btw, 16th September is Hari malaysia. Its a HOLIDAY/
17th and 18th are Saturday and Sunday














OMG. Super funny!!!



每个人的心情是否像我的呢?




听着伤感的歌,

听着Olivia Ong轻轻的声音,

英文歌里的歌词渗透进了我的心灵。





表面的准备我已有了,

只欠心理上的准备。





每个人的心情是否像我的吗?

夜里偷偷流泪,

早上起来面对还剩下只有一天的现实,

抱头痛哭。

这样想的只有我吗?










Sunday, September 4, 2011

我接受不到啦啦!!!!





这几天我都好早起床,
放佛身体在提醒我,
你在这里的日子已经不多了,
没有多余的时间浪费在睡觉上了,
也许是那样吧。


而晚上,
我到了半夜还不舍得睡,
别人已经上楼了,
我还在客厅里看书,
这简简单单的小事情,
足以让我觉得不舍得,
不知道去到大学是否还有时间看书呢?



朋友已经渐渐的离开了。
马大早已开始了,
今天应该是第二天吧。

UUM的朋友也是今早坐巴士出发了。
祝他们一路顺风 :)

唯一上槟城USM的朋友,
今天应该在KL了吧?

UMP的朋友也走了吧?




UPM的我,
还要等到星期三,
后天!!
我的妈呀!
那么快!


我真的接受不到啦啦啦啦~~~~~~!!!!!








:(






他说的话我能体会。




刚刚我匆匆忙忙赶去巴士站时
的感觉真的真的很伤心
因为都没properly 跟我的家人道别
还有飞着去巴士站是的感觉很。。。。。
sad。。。
很舍不得这个bentong town



在巴士站那边等巴士时,
我的感觉是。。。


希望巴士不要将快来。
给多我一分钟
看多文东一眼
到最后。。。
巴士没有来到。。。


感觉有点。。。erm.... happy o.O



















如果是我,
我也是会那样想的,
我明白也能体会。

:(





o.O

收拾行李。


前几天我妈一直吹我收拾行李,
从星期四就吹到今早。
那时候我心想,
还有一个星期不需要那么快吧!
唉。。。


我收拾行李真的很慢,
必须要一个一个慢慢来,
放了进行李想就要记录下来,
多少件衣服,
多少条裤子。

好讨厌收拾行李,
感觉上真的是要道别了,
心情一开始有点沉闷,
可是到最后,
收拾到快发火了!




今天早上才成功收拾到七七八八了。
还剩枕头、抱枕、被。。。
光是装东西已经有三大袋了!!
还有桶呢!
我到底要怎样杠去UPM啊啊啊?!!!





现在我多么希望自己是个像阿拉丁神灯李的精灵,
住在一个小瓶子里,
要搬家只需要带着我的瓶子就好了,
省下更多的麻烦。




以上是我从七岁开始就陪着我的抱枕,
朋友说要看看所以就放了上FB。


我没有这个是真的睡不着的。
所以当然要带去,
我才不管别人笑我什么的,
每个人都有自己的习惯嘛,
而我的就是晚上要抱着这个才能入睡。


抱枕上面的那个是一块batik布。
是跟朋友去pra-U Karnival买回来的,
充满回忆 :)











我的两个好朋友已经离开了,
一个在马大,现在应该还在听讲座吧!

另一个去了吉隆坡过一夜,
第二天才去槟城的USM。



真的好不舍得哦。














我的时间也不多,
还剩两天了。



心情很复杂。


:)?


:(?





Another KL trip :)

Well Ms. Mok and I decided to go to KLCC covention center for the book fair.
We've been going there since the 1st time they had this book fair.


I was a bit reluctant to go at first
cause based on my previous experiences
the English novels sold there are mostly not my type.

They're all from the popular bookstore
which means there aren't many choices.

The books have to be super popular or best sellers
to make it to the shelves of the book fair.


Well, the books I love are mostly only found in Kinokuniya.

So I agreed to go in the end.
XD




>////<




The photo was taken in the toilet
while I was aiting for Ms Mok to finish doing her business.
Hahahahah XD


I agree that I do look like an overgrown primary student in that outfit.
LOL.
Especially with my red backpack.
And the people at the ticket counter probably thought that I was below 18,
I shouldn't have bought the tickets then.





We went to Kinokuniya first.
My favourite place to go :)

I couldn't find the book I was looking for :(
People's Republic by Robert Muchamore.






I super love this photo.
Dunno why.



At the book fair.
We saw talented kids participating in a drawing contest called
'Obe book, one world'
which sounds kinda cheesy for me.
:P


Its the complete set of Alice in Wonderland with cute cute drawings.
I fell in love with this book!!!
I wanted to buy it!!
But it was too damn heavy for me to lug around so I didn't get it!!!
Arrrggghhh!!!!

So I asked EBjj whether she could help me buy it.
But then she said it was sold out.
*sob*



We had our lunch at Pavilion.



I look weird here.
Gah!!



I was crawving for chicken chop so I ordered this,
actually both of us ordered the same thing.


Looks super tasty but in the end...



we couldn't finish it.
And I ended up playing with my food.



Even leftovers can turn into very tasty looking morsels after garnishing.
I watch too many cooking programmes.
= =





Here's my loot :)
Super satisfied.
Utiliti sut max.
Haha!!



The nice black shoes I bought for the U
from a tiny shop in Times Square
that sells shoes with larger sizes. Thank god!
My old ones are almost torn.



Super expensive copic markers!!!
But I had to get them!!
Muahahahahaha!!!
Finally!
I'll get a few markers everytime I go to KLCC then I'll have the full set!



The RM10 dress that I found in a random shop in Times Square.
I own very few dresses so I decided to get one.



A very cute blouse that looks super nice and comfy for RM25!


I got another collar blouse for RM30
but it was already packed in my luggage so no photos for that.




I couldn't resist taking a picture of my super cute pencil boxes.
I'm too vulnerable to cute stuff.
XD





That's all, toodles~












P/s: I had tons of fun!!