My 3 day experience in Lower 6...

Want to hear about my 3-day-experience??

I don't think you would want to hear bout it...
Haizzz...
I really really really miss my Form 4 & 5 days...
Where I know everyone of my friend's name by heart...
I can't believe that I have to face the same problem again when I was in
kindergarten... Year 1... & Form 1...
I have to remember the names of all my classmates...
= ='''
There're only 25 in my class...
Most of them were my secondary school mates...
And the rest are all from Khai Mun...

Oh and before you ask...
I choose the Accounts class...
And I'm in 6R2
To some this may seem to be the weak/ bad class...
But actually it's not... (maybe)
Cause we have 1 science class, 2 accounts class and 1 sastera...
There's nothing to compare with...
All the subjects are different except for the 2 accounts classes...
And why am I in the 2nd class??
Cause I don't have any accounts basics...
And the teacher decided to divide us into 2 groups...
With and without basics...
Haizzzz...

And these few days haven't been really fun...
Well sometimes...
All our teachers are okay...
At least they do teach and not laze around...
But there's this lunatic teacher that seems to have Pre Menstrual Syndrome everyday
Everyone's scared/ terrified of her!!!
Me included!!!
I'm petrified of her!!!
She screams, raises her voice and scolds all of a sudden!!
With no warning...
And of course is EXTREMELY strict!!!

Arrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!
I have to face her tomorrow!!!
My gawd!!!

The subjects taught in the accounts class are okay...
I can cope up with it...
But it still feels weird looking at an ekonomi book instead of a BIO book...
Not that I've got books...
And that brings us to another BIG PROBLEM!!!

We need to buy books!!!!
Lots and lots and lots of books!!!
That are extremely expensive!!!!

Is there anyone out there who is willing to sell second hand, third hand or even fourth hand books??
Accounts, Perniagaan, MUET, Ekonomi??
Longman books??
Yes???

Oh and today the lower 6 had a meeting...
Sort of...
And my name was called thrice!!!
3 times!!!
The first time...

' xxx, diri sekejap...ini adalah satu lagi contoh rambut yang kemas... Pin rambut to kemas- kemas...' (whateva... I can't really remember 100%)

I was shocked at first...
Cause it was the teacher I mentioned above who called my name...
After she finished explaining I felt relieved and a little happy...
Hehe^^


The second time = =

'Orang yang saya panggil sila berdiri... Orang inilah yang tidak menghormati guru... bla bla bla... @#%#$%@#%@%# langsung tak hormat... Semua orang Ketari. Mereka ingat mereka semua hebat sangat... Saya sangat kecewa... bla bla bla bla...'

'Mereka semua didenda CUCI TANDAS!!!'

And I was like, What the F*CK!!!
(I'm sorry but I was really pissed then)

We were given a name list of all the teachers and were asked to get the teachers signatures...
But I was among those who got 5 signatures and below...
Just because I didn't do this whole heartedly...
I get such a punishment???!!!
That's insane!!! Ridiculous!!!!
Even my mum was furious...
Haizzz...

The good news?
Cuci tandas untuk 10 minit...
Phew~

I was called for the 3rd time but that's not important...
Something bout a Rotary club...
At first I thought that the teacher said 'lottery club'
And I was wondering what the hell was it...
Haha...

Anyway there's more to come if you wait patiently...
I'm in a hurry to type this...
Cause actually I have work to do
It's about 'snatch theft' for my presentation tomorrow!~
Hehe...


That's all~~


P/s: I won't be posting regularly... I'm way too busy now...
Sorry bloggie~

DIYs for the teachers^^

Yesterday I felt really frustrated and miserable...
So i decided to make something to distract myself...
And since our school will be celebrating teacher's day
so I decided to make something for the teachers...
It was pretty easy to make^^

I didn't even need to buy the materials for making them...
Cause actually I made them from the gifts my mum received...
Hehe...
I used the materials and put them together^^
A little creativity and + waste materials...
Tada!!!
There you have a pretty & affordable gift~

The gifts that I made...
I made only 3...
For the only 3 teachers...
Hehe...
Cause I like them loh...

Sorry, this is a bit blurry...
I took this photo in a rush...
Cause I had to go for my piano lesson this morning...

This is for EB jj^^
Inside that strip of paper I wrote

'Without music, life is like a journey through a desert'

I was planning to suprise EBjj with this...
But my STUPID brother went and blabbed about it!!!
Damn you!!!

This is only half done...
Without the little chocolate in the middle^^
The stick sticking out is a real nuisance...

This is for Pn Nair...
Our previous English teacher^^
And I'm hoping that she'll be our MUET teacher too...
On the strip of paper I wrote...

'Time ripens all things, no man is born wise'

I was laughing while making this
cause I think I chose the wrong color for Pn Nair...
Haha...
Pink...

Half done...

For Pn Wong
Our previous sejarah teacher^^

I deliberately wrote

'We are made wise not by the recollection of our past,
but by responsibility of our future.'

Haha...
You guys get what I mean?
She's a SEJARAH teacher...

The two pretty sticks^^

With the little chocolate inside...
Haha...
I only managed to put one chocolate...
Cause I was afraid the whole thing might sag...
See the UHU glue beside?
That's my main weapon... hehe...

Is it because of the angle?
This doesn't look that impressive...
*sob*

Really satisfied with my work^^
I'm actually planning to sell these for Valentines day
next year at school...
Do you think anyone will buy one for RM 1.50?
I have loads of ideas^^
And I really enjoy making them...
So will it work??

My messy table after I've finished my work...
Haha...
I'm really terrible...

And now...
It's really tidy...
Yay!!! for me~

The little corner...
See those sticks??
They're half done...

The book stands my mum got for me...
So I wouldn't need to pile my books up...





Yay!!!
Going to give them to Pn Nair and Pn Wong on Monday...
Wonder how will they react...
Haha...





Gimme comments :)


Oh yeah... FYI, I choose accounts class...
Cheers for me?

Separate ways

I dunno what to do now...
This feeling started when I saw the the strange look of yours
You were sitting there with your brows knitted together
A frown formed
I noticed

You told me you weren't sure
You told me bout the uncomfortable feeling that was lingering about
You told me perhaps this decision was the best
At least better than your first

I nodded
I told you to think carefully
I told you to choose what ever you felt was the right choice

Then you told me with such firm eyes
Piercing through me...
You had to choose what was right for you

At that moment,
I felt myself swaying...
My real smile vanished replaced by a fake one
My laughter dimmed by that one decision of yours
But still I put on a straight face
Telling myself that your decision was right

I couldn't bring myself to tell you to stay
I didn't want to be your burden
I didn't want to pull you away from your dreams
But still I was held behind by jealousy and fear
Jealous because other friendships might blossom
Fear because our friendship might fade

I didn't speak of my true feelings
I said only but encouragements
The dark feelings inside me grew
A fake smile on the outside

I knew your decision was absolute
I didn't want to make you waver

I sat in the front seat
Avoiding your gaze
Perhaps you realized, perhaps you didn't
As you got off
I gave a faint smile and waved you off
You didn't realize did you?

My eyes clouded with tears
Blurring my vision
As I watched the traffic lights turn green
The first tear worked its way down
I felt stupid
Why was I crying?

Never have I felt that miserable before
Never had I let anyone see me crying
I wasn't good at expressing my real emotions
Nor was I good at saying goodbye with a heavy heart

I know that that's not really goodbye but still...
I fear for us
I fear for our friendship
I know nothing lasts forever but then I wanted it to...

Perhaps we have reached the cross road of life
We each have chosen the path we have in mind with a heavy heart
I stand at the cross road
to wave you off, to bid you goodbye and good luck
And then we'll go our separate ways...


And I have to learn to accept it...

Good luck, my friend.

Of depressing things and dilemmas...

Had a rather depressing day...
Correction, I had a really depressing day...


Today is my first Form 6 orientation week...
I was rather excited the night before
It felt good, wearing new uniform(though it's not really new)
It felt good going back to school...
But that was what I thought last night...
I couldn't sleep too...
Insomnia problems kicking in...

Today when I went to school I was still quite excited
about the fact that I'll see my friends again
It was fun^^

The cat under the canteen table^^
Yup I got my phone to school in case...
Cause I had to call my mum to fetch me from school
But in the end I got a lift from a friend^^


But then, the problem occurred...
We have to choose our classes this week...
There're different packages...

And I'm having a great BIG dilemma now...


WHICH ON EARTH SHOULD I CHOOSE??!!!

At first I thought about choosing Accounts class...
The subjects:
1. Accounts
2. Pengajian Am
3. Pengajian Perniagaan
4. Ekonomi

All the subjects look way too alien to me!!!
(I was a Science student last time, & I wouldn't want it again!!)
I thought about dropping Accounts and taking Sejarah...
But it seems like that's impossible...

And plus my Math is very BAD!!

Second option?
Sastera...
Subjects:
1. BM
2. Pengajian Perniagaan
3. Sejarah
4. Pengajian Am

These subjects aren't that alien to me...

But the problem?
I'll probably end up in a class full of Malays...
I probably won't be in the same class with my best friend & the gang
I don't wanna write karangan!!!
But to me this is probably the only way out

So which should I choose??!!!


I'm really depressed just thinking about this...
And there's another BIGGER problem that's haunting me...
My heart kinda aches and my smile vanishes whenever I think bout it...
Don't ask what, it's private...
I'll rather keep it locked inside than tell somebody...
Haizzz...


So two HUGE problems...
Even after listening to songs and reading...
I still feel down...
Haizzz...
So tell me?
How bad can my day get??
I know that there are others worse than me but I can't help it...

Oh yeah and I forgot...

Form 6 have to go home at 4:00pm!!!
That's almost in the evening...
Plus school starts at 8:00am


To make matters worse...
I have no transportation to school if it really starts that late
And coming home might be a BIG problem too...
And there were rumors flying about...
that we need to wear batik to school on Thursday??
Every Thurday??!!!
That's only a rumor,
but if it's true I'll probably faint...
Correction, Everyone will faint!!




Someone help?!!

Happy mother's day^^

Today's Mother's day...
So I just wanted to say Happy Mother's day to my mum^^
Hehe...
I didn't really wish her Happy Mother's Day...

Cause I'm not used to expressing my feelings...
Hehe
So I'm saying it here

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Yeah that's my mum...(she's cooking now)
Haha...

This is the only picture nice enough...
Cause she never let's me take her pictures...
Some of you may come to know her as Madam Woon...
Haha...
She's a great teacher(to some maybe not) andto me a...

Haha...
That's all I want to say~

I'm sorry that we don't really celebrate Mother's day...
It's rather pointless now...
I mean...
If we go out for dinner just to celebrate I can't pay for it cause I have no $$$
And it's pointless to buy gifts and jewelry cause you don't need them...
You're easily pretty enough without those material things...
I can't give you money either cause I don't have $$$
Haizzz...
So now it's rather pointless unless I get good grades and make you proud...
That's a tough one...



Anyway...
Again I say...
Happy Mother's Day!!!

Bitter thoughts

I'm typing this with mixed emotions...

Should I or shouldn't I?

Perhaps yes, perhaps not...

I know I shouldn't let my pride get the better of me...

But I still can't do it...

Should I??

I close my eyes...

Falling into a deep deep hypnotizing sleep

Surrounding myself with vivid dreams and nightmares

I awake feeling refreshed

But that feeling still lingers about

And still the question stays unanswered...

Should I?

Perhaps it is truly time to let my pride down

And tell you I'm sorry?

But I don't think it's my fault.

Doesn't apologizing mean I'm giving up?

Doesn't it mean I'm weak?

I've never liked to apologize...

Am I being ignorant still?

Should I let my pride get in the way?

So should I?

I'm pacing back and forth in my room

repeating the same question again and again...

My lips tasting the bitterness of my heart

Should I?

A feeling of deep regret creeps onto me

A sudden sadness sweeps away my senses

These troubled feelings pain me

Like nightmares of a fevered sleep

Tell me...

Should I?




P/s: This is probably true...

Perhaps I should...

Haizzz...

But I won't say it out loud...
So if you see this... you might know?

Friends?

Form 6 school uniform...

Hiya, Hola, Hello, Yo, What'sup, What gives?, Howdy, Hi...
Anymore??

Haha...
Got my skirt done yesterday (Was it yesterday?)
The tailor sewed it from my old pinafore^^

Hi~

Yeah, I know...
I'm really FAT, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat...
;(
Seriously...
No kidding...
So the uniform looks really bad on me...
*sob*

That's what I have to wear for the 2 years?
NO way!!!

Then I'll have to tie all my hair up... again...
Like last time...
Haizzz...
fringe = no fringe...
*sob*


I need to get ready for school!!!
Ooops...
Haven't bought stationery yet!!
I need blue pens and black ones too!!!
And textbooks?
Form 6 students have to buy textbooks right??!!!

My Gawd!!!
Me no $$$$$$!!!


And need to go to KL for tuitions too...

Found a new song to play^^
Aerith's theme and Yoru no Uta
Learning now~

Praises of strangers make your heart flutter,
snide remarks of true friends make your heart wither;
so which will you choose?

Gimme comments, yes? :)

P/s: This post makes me seem like a narcissist... haha XD